SAD :(

So sad...I waited and waited..no call back from Miss Sixty/Energie...meaning I didn't get the job. :( I'm so sad...I feel as if I just let myself down along with my hubby and daughter. I feel like such a loser...sigh...I was really hoping to get the job and all. But I don't know, maybe they did try to call me, but didn't get through? Cause sometimes ppl call me and they say that it tells them the number they are calling can not be reached....sigh...T-Mobile sucks sometimes. I'm just over thinking and all...*sniff *sniff. I guess God has something better for me.... :S

I'm going to head back to the mall Monday and go apply at the other stores and try my luck again. Please keep me in your prayers and hopefully I can land a job soon!!!

So today I went to David's open house and it made me so jealous. I just so want to cry right now. I could be that person you know, showing off your house. I could have been that person with smiles on their face greeting guests in. It should have been me who had bought a house. But I'm not...I'm no where near it. Abel (my hubby's younger brother) just bought a house a month ago..and we are living with them. It's a decent house...it only costed $95,000.00. Sigh...I really want a house of my own. I really want a job. I really want to go to school. I really want to be able to open my own fashion retail store someday. I really want to be successful in life. I really want to make my parents proud of me. I really, really, really, want it!! But I'm no where near it...no where near my dream. I'm just a lonely person in this world who just sits at home watching her kid. No ambition to do anything. Lord, help me. Help me make my life better.