Kandee Johnson is such a cool person! She has inspired me so much on life and what not. You guys can check her out at http://kandeethemakeupartist.blogspot.com/ . I love her blogs on here and especially her youtube videos. They are awesome!! She's such a great role model on life and stuff. I just read her blog about patience and I believe it is so true. There is a season for all things to happen. And when we rush for things to happen so quickly, we make mistakes. An example she gave was relationships. You want to be with that person so much that you rush into a marriage just to find out that it was the wrong thing to do. I think I'm that person right now. All my life, I have always wanted the warmth and attention from men. I couldn't be with my first love so when I met my husband later I wanted things to be perfect. I didn't want to lose him either and rushed in marriage (by culture only). And now I'm sitting her regretting the days that I shouldn't have done it. That I should have went home on that day instead of going home with him. We are so different in many ways now. We've grown to adapt to each other yet it's so complicating at times. He likes certain things and I like certain things. Our taste in things has differ in the past 4 years of our relationship. I have a goal in life that I want to reach someday and he doesn't know what to do anymore. He used to know what he want; now it's "I don't know". I don't know...maybe we aren't meant to be. Now that we have our baby daughter, it's even harder to leave him. But I still do anyways and of course I'm taking her with me. I'm going to give us maybe another year together to see how it goes. If things don't shape up, then I'm going to have to call it quits.
I did rush into things because of my selfish needs. I'm the only one to blame for. I want to start a new life. A life where I can be able to reflect and say things like; "wow, I did it!".
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