Feng Shui

So I've been looking up Feng Shui lately because I want to transform my room!! Gosh I'm like so addicted to it right now...and it's kind of exciting actually! I'm surprised that a lot of people don't know what feng shui is. It's also something Hmong people have been following for the past decade. So I thought I should try it out. I'm going to like buy a book for my mom for christmas..cause she's into this kind of stuff..and I think she will totally love it!! Haha. Well...I've been learning a lot actually and gosh..now I totally want to have my own home feng shui customized...hahahhaa. Ok, so I drew out my new bedroom layout and I've been downloading pictures from the internet this morning . I just need to print them out and frame them. Not sure how I'm going to decorate my walls yet, but I sort of have an idea already. I'm going to take before and after pics as well...and post them on here when I'm done. It should be all set by the time we have our open house for the young couples here. I totally want them to see my room, that's for sure! Hehe.

Off I go for more feng shui!!

shopping..

So we went to T-mobile last night to see about upgrading our single cell phone line to a family plan. And by the way T-mobile updated their plans and are so much better right now..cheaper. Anyways a cool guy helped us out and have us very useful information and we will be heading back to T-mobile Dec. 17th or 18th to do our family plan. I so want a new phone..but we'll see if I can be eligible to get a new phone. hehe.

After that we headed out to the the mall. I wanted a new purse since mine right now if like breaking apart. My straps are starting to rip so I don't want my straps to fall apart on me one day unexpected. I went to the small stores in the mall going thru all the purses and didn't find any one I liked wholeheartly. Some were too small, too big, or just simply too plain!! I want something medium to big size with a little bling to it with a nice interior and space. I want the handles to be just the perfect length. Also I want a new wallet to go well with a new purse. I found one that I liked..but still thinking about it if the size is right for me. Anyways, after trying to look for a purse I went to a store and found some stuff I really liked and they were having a "take an additional 25% off" sale. So I grabbed a black cotton leggings that I have been searching for for crazy cause I would never find my size. I also grabbed a red tank with lace and a purpel tube top top dress that would go great with my leggings. I just now need a like a nice sweater to wear to cover my shoulders, a necklace and some earings. Lols. I saw some cool necklaces and earings at Forever 21, but Abe was like no...don't buy them yet. I only spent $16.67 for all 3 items and was very pleased. I haven't bought anything for me in such a long time and I'm happy that I got the chance to get a little something. Oh and I got all these items at a store called Impressions.

Oh and I'm excited for Black Friday!!

'US'

A few blogs back I kept writing about how I wasn't happy with my marriage and how I hated my husband so much!! But I've been thinking for a couple of days now and I'm not mad anymore..lols. Abe is a sweet man who really really loves me. It's just that he's going thru a hard time in life and has lack of rest that we have been really grouchy to each other. The good news is that since he started his job at Oreilly things has turned around a bit. We talk more when he comes home and we get the evening together as well as the night. He used to work 3rd shift at Ross and it was always me and baby at home at night. But these past few days has just been such a bliss!! I'm very thankful that God has shown me the way. He gave me signs and informed that no matter how hard it can get, no matter how frustrating it may be, the person I married is the right person for me. God IS really wonderful and amazing!! I love Abe and he loves me. With God, everything is beautiful!

make up and stuff...

I've been watching a new channel on Youtube.com and discovered a gal names Cynthia who is Chinese and is a model. I think she is gorgeous and has such a unique look. I just found her last night when I was searching for new videos to watch because I was bored. I watched some of her videos already and she is just terrific! I learned a lot of new things from her and found some new websites to buy cheap yet good makeup. Here is the link:

http://www.eyeslipsface.com/home

It's called E.L.F. for the initials and all. I sort of heard about this name brand awhile back, but never really took the initiative to go and look at it. So this morning I checked out the website and I' very surprised! The prices are VERY AFFORDABLE. I so want to get their make up brush set and try it out as well as their eyeshadows. Lols...there's a lot on there that I would love to get when I get the chance. And it you spend over $75 you get free shipping. Haha.. bet I can spend more than $100 on there since everything is so cheap and all.

I also discovered something new from Cynthia. The nail polish company called China Glaze. She mentioned about a top coat that dries up like intsantly. I always do my nails like at night before I go to bed because it takes awhile for my nails to dry. When I do them during the day, I'm always injuring my nail polish..so they end up with nicks and it looks all messy when it dries. Cynthia has the same situation and she said that with China Glaze's top coat, her nail polish dries like instantly. I so want to try it!! I can never find something like that. I checked out the website just now and I can't seem to find the prices and top coat. I found their variety of colors; which is amazing by the way, but just can't find what I am looking for. I'll keep searching and hopefully I'll get it soon!! :)

I can't wait til I get started on doing my make up kit. I have so many things to buy and it's going to take me AWHILE to get it all together, but when I do; I'm going to share it with everyone! I'm really thinking about making my own channel on Youtube. I told my little sister that I wanted a webcam for christmas and so I hope she does get me that..and a good one too! hehe. I'm excited and can't wait to share a little of my life with all of the world. Have a super duper happy day!!

Princess Diaries

I just finished watching Princess Diaries with Anne Hathaway. I haven't seen it in awhile and thought I watch it since there wasn't much to do. While watching it I pondered about if I was in her position. Like what would I do? Every girl's dream is to be a princess or have a fairy tale love. What do I have? What did I end with now? I have always dreamed of being a princess...living in a big castle with maids and a personal attendant. I have always dreamed of meeting that special someone who would sweep me off my feet with his kiss and making my feet pop up (like what Mia talked about in the movie).

I did meet my special guy who gave me a kiss that made my foot pop up. His kisses were amazing and left a mark on my mind lingering for him when he left my side. My heart would flutter with butterflies when I was next to him or when he would reach for my hand to hold. Life was perfect when I was with him. Well...I was just really happy/nervous/shy all at once when I was with him. But it's sad that we didn't end like a fairytale story. We didn't end up together because he was always too busy to make time for 'US'.

When I met my husband now, it was a different reaction...not the same. It wasn't all fluttery and magical like Him. I sometime still long for him, but then I understand that we will never be. I long to find another special person who will give me the fluttery magical moments again. Someone who will kiss me and walk away yet; I will linger for his return so I can kiss him again. I long to the princess I dream to be...

Will there ever be a chance again?

Kandee's blog on patience

Kandee Johnson is such a cool person! She has inspired me so much on life and what not. You guys can check her out at http://kandeethemakeupartist.blogspot.com/ . I love her blogs on here and especially her youtube videos. They are awesome!! She's such a great role model on life and stuff. I just read her blog about patience and I believe it is so true. There is a season for all things to happen. And when we rush for things to happen so quickly, we make mistakes. An example she gave was relationships. You want to be with that person so much that you rush into a marriage just to find out that it was the wrong thing to do. I think I'm that person right now. All my life, I have always wanted the warmth and attention from men. I couldn't be with my first love so when I met my husband later I wanted things to be perfect. I didn't want to lose him either and rushed in marriage (by culture only). And now I'm sitting her regretting the days that I shouldn't have done it. That I should have went home on that day instead of going home with him. We are so different in many ways now. We've grown to adapt to each other yet it's so complicating at times. He likes certain things and I like certain things. Our taste in things has differ in the past 4 years of our relationship. I have a goal in life that I want to reach someday and he doesn't know what to do anymore. He used to know what he want; now it's "I don't know". I don't know...maybe we aren't meant to be. Now that we have our baby daughter, it's even harder to leave him. But I still do anyways and of course I'm taking her with me. I'm going to give us maybe another year together to see how it goes. If things don't shape up, then I'm going to have to call it quits.

I did rush into things because of my selfish needs. I'm the only one to blame for. I want to start a new life. A life where I can be able to reflect and say things like; "wow, I did it!".

brrr...cold!!

I wake up this morning and gosh I didn't want to get out of bed, but my urge to hit on the net was more than I wanted. Lols. So here I am!! It's so COLD this morning...I slept with 3 blankets..haha..it was WARM! Baby Summer is still snoozing away...under the warm blankies. hehe. But then yeah, the heater doesn't work so we are stuck to the cold wilderness in this house. So sad.. ::( I don't know when the landlord is going to fix it and all.

Today is the first day my Abe's new job. His broke down Friday Night and so...we've been car-less for the past couple of days. He figured out why his car just suddenly just died on the road. It was because of his timing belt went bad. He bought a new one yesterday and fixed it, test drove the car and found out the car has no more power. He called some of his friends with experience explaining his situation and they told him that his Head went out. OMG! So now he has to look for a Head..which ranges from $70-$500. He found someone off of craigslist yesterday that was selling his Head...called the guy and offered $80! So we'll see if he can go get today or what not. Geesh..so many things going wrong. That's why I seriously need a job, but then again; can't go to work without a car. Sigh.

Well, today is nothing much for me...just going to stay home and chill with baby Summer. And hope that it warms up in here...lols.