looks cold this morning...

Woke up this morning at 6:50am...so early. This time change is really effecting me..hehe. I'm up by 7am in the morning ever since the time changed and so is my baby girl. This morning looks a bit cold..the sun comes out and the fades away..with a slight breeze...the trees are moving a bit. Lols. I am supposed to go job hunting today..but iono. I just don't have the urge to do it. I know I need a job and all. There's many things I can do if I have found a job. But since it's so hard to get a job and I have been searching and going to interviews with no calls in return. I feel as if even though I go out there...no one wants me. :( I don't know. Sigh.

I'll give it a shot today and I'll pray before I head out.

BARKWORKS!!

So we went to Tyler Galleria in Riverside today. We just went window shopping for ideas for Christmas gifts. There's a puppy store called Barkworks there and we always go to it when we are there. OMG!! They have the cutest pups there!! And they were having such a GOOD SALE!! If I had the money and not live with other ppl...I would have bought one!! My daughter who is only 7 months loves pets and she was jumping with joy when we were there. Gosh!! They had Yorkies, Shitzus, labradoodles, german shepard, maltese mixes, and so much more! SIgh...I so want one!! I have always wanted to have my own lil doggie!! I had one when I was younger but my parents took him away because they didn't want pets anymore. So sad...I say! I want to own a shitzu or a malitpoo...they are so adorable!! I so can't wait til I own one!!! :P

Anyways, I've been thinking about buying a home lately. I totally want to have my own place again. I really miss that. I really want to buy a home by the end of April of next year. But I don't know how..cause my credit is like really bad and so is my hubby. We kind of ruined our credit in the early years...stupid of us..but yeah. We haven't been able to pay anything off due to the lack of finances throughout the past couple of years. I know we can be able to save enough for the down paymet, but we won't qualify for a loan. I was thinking about asking my parents if they would cosign for us...but you know, you never know the answers to that. I'm not even sure if my husband's parents would do it too. Since Obama has extended the home buyer tax credit to April 30, 2010 I really want to take up the opportunity and buy a home. My price range is pretty decent...I'm looking to buy a home that is between $75,000 and $140,000. Nothing too extreme, just reasonable for our state of budget. Gosh, buying a home would be such an accomplishment! After buying a home, I can focus on my career...finish school and strive to open up my fashion retail store. I would be like super HAPPY! :D

money, money, money...

Money...everyone needs money in order to survive in this crucial world these days. Money is very important...it gets you from point A to point B smoothly. People with money have more buying power. But then again, money means greed. What if there was unlimited money to spend in this world...will we be more happier? Or will we all be still the same? If you think about it, in bank accounts ...it's just a number...If we were to just just our debit/credit cards only without cash...gosh, why not let the bank just refill our account all the time? Cause they wouldn't be giving out cash...so that would be more of a convenience.

Well, money is my problem at the moment of my life right now. I need money in order to get ahead in life. I need a job in order to have money to go to school, buy a house, pay off debts, and support my little family. Money is like my savior at the moment. Although GOD is my savior of everything. Money is needed much! If I had money, I would be able to do so much. I could go to school without worries and then be able to open up my very own fashion retail store. Sigh....gosh I so want that!!! There are things in life sometimes where it's so hard to grasp because there is no money.

Gosh if I were able to change one aspect of this world, I would change the money system. I would let everyone have unlimited money. Everything purchased would be debit/credit only. Banks would just refill when you get low. Cash will be limited. One person would only be allowed to take out a certain amount per month. Plus, cash wouldn't be so important to carry anymore...only just in case you forget your card at home. Everything would be purchased electronically. Then there will never be anymore poverty in this world anymore. Everyone would be a little bit more happier; although I don't promise cruel things will still be present. But yeah, I think ppl will get to do what they have always wanted and feel more accomplished in life. Oh and also there will be an age limit to those who will own a card...I'm thinking age 20 and up. I truly think 18 is not an age where ppl mature. People usually mature when they are in their 20's. So I would totally have an age limit!!

I'm stressin' cause I am having financial problems. This was just a thought that I was thinking about. It'll be pretty cool though!! hehe

2010 Wishlist....

Ok..so I have been going about on all the things that I WANT and NEED! There are so many things that I would like to own by the end of 2010. I actually made a list...lols. LOOK BELOW!

Owned by 2010:

- Pink, Black, White, Nude, purple, and 2 warm colors nail polish
- Ecotools or Sigma make up brush set
- 88 regular eye shadow palette from Coastalscent
- 88 shimmer eye shadow palette from Coastalscent
- 88 warm eye shadow palette from Coastalscent
- A good hydrating body lotion
- MAC Studio fix powder foundation
- MAC Studio fix bronzer
- A good liquid foundation
- A good face moisturizer with SPF
- Loreal's LASH BLAST mascara
- A new eye lash curler
- Low cut black socks
- Low cut white socks
- Long socks
- A new pair of casual tennis shoes
- Black flat boots or with a little heel
- Brown flat boots or with a little heel
- 2 new pairs of sandals
- 3 pairs of new jeans (skinny and boot cut)
- Fashionable leather jacket
- A nice black peacoat
- 4 new white tanks with lace
- Black tank tops (or colored)
- A new black button down sweater
- A new big purse
- A new wallet (pink or white)
- Black, white, gray cotton leggings
- Metallic leggings
- Necklace, bracelets, and earings!!!
- 2010 wall calendar
- 2010 planner
- Victoria's Secret's Velvet perfume
- A new blazer
- 2 new pairs of black pants (with zipper on the back or side)
- Make up primer
- 2 new bottles of hairspray (flexible and strong hold)
- A wooden round brush with good bristles
- A new comb
- An electric shaver
- A light blue or white comforter set (Queen size)
- 4 new firm pillows
- A make up brush cleaner
- Post it's
- 2 notebooks
- 5 dressy tops
- 8 gb mp3 player
- White dresser
- Black picture frames
- A camcorder
- 16 gb SD memory card
- A new Queen Size mattress
- Laundry baskets
- Sleepwear!!!
- A new car (SUV)

...and more to come!!

election and blah..

Drum ROLL!! The results are in!! The election at church this morning was long yet very interesting. A lot of the candidates that were nominated backed down and didn't want the position at all...which was very sad and disappointing. But anyways...hahha...I wasn't nominated for anything. My heart is actually set on being Sunday School director. I want to improve the children's education on God and learning how to pray. Because I don't see that at all in the past 3 years that I have been here. I'm not sure if I will be selected, but I would love to be it. I don't think anyone wants to take up the responsibility anyways...lols. Well, I'll just pray and hope that I get the position. I have so many thoughts already piling up...hahha...I'm already so excited even when I'm not the Director yet. Lols. Well, the next 2 years will be an exciting one and a good one!! (I hope)...lols.

Enough said, I really need a job. I really do...I really need to get ahead of other people and like you know...so people can see what I am capable of. I know that people see me as a lazy person who doesn't want to do anything..or a person who says something, but doesn't get their butt up and actually doing it. I plan on changing that!! I want people to respect me and see that I can do things....I'm just not in the position to do it because I have no car to get anywhere and always have to depend on my lazy retarded husband...lols. Anyways, I plan to go apply for seasonal positions at the Outlet tomorrow...I'll need all the prayers I can get...I want to be able to work asap! And then Tuesday I'm thinking about heading out of town and apply at temp agencies and see what they can help me with. Wednesday I need to head over to Social Services and fill out my quarterly report. Thursday I'll just do laundry and take a day off...the Friday call Art Institute for more information on attending there next year in the Spring. Good luck to me this week and I just really hope for the best!!

Sunday church election...

So today is Sunday, November the 7th!! It's that time of the year again...election DAY at church! I currently hold the secretarial position for the women's dept. and my hubby is president for the men's dept. I'm up early because I wanted to write this blog as well as make myself look extra good today (don't know how I'm gonna do that, but I'll try anyways...lols). I can't wait to see who will be leaders next as well as nervous if I get nominated..which I don't think...but there's a possibility. I just hope today will be filled with laughters and hugs and all that warm fuzzy stuff!! :) We missed the election 2 years ago because my hubby was having a high fever/flu...so we couldn't make it, but was given the office positions afterwards. So it's my first time joining on such an event. YAY!!

Anyways...I'll be back on here later tonight to spill the beans and yeah!

It's daylight savings TIME!! Fall back an HOUR!! Yet I wake up at 7am...hahahha. Everyone is sleeping in while I am awake. My tummy hurts, there's a lot on my mind, and I don't want to go to church this morning. Sigh...I've been thinking so much.

What I have been thinking about? I've been thinking about why the Lord gave me my hubby. Why him? I don't even know if he will perfect my life...he doesn't even want to better himself in his career anymore...he has no motivation. He's so lazy at times. He doesn't pick up after himself. He's slow..doesn't get/or doesn't know what to do when it comes to cleaning. He's stubborn! He just doesn't get it. He won't even wake up at 8am or 9am...he keeps saying he's tired...yet I'm the one who wakes up at night to feed Baby. When she wakes up...I'm usually up already. So irritating!! The list can go on..but I prefer not listing them...too much.

I still can't figure it out.